; you're rocking up my sugar candy cherry world.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

|| party fleemosyary. ||

OH-MY-FREAKING-TIRED.

it's like 3.30am now, just got home. more photos another day when kailin uploads them. in brief, this saturday's night was fun with the commies. :D super need to crash now! nighty nights, sweetest dreams! byee!

; i've got a feeling,
tonight's gonna be a good night.

Friday, February 05, 2010

|| king of hearts. ||

omg, it's february. time moves too quickly. just this morning, i glanced at my phone's clock and saw the year 2010, and i immediately thought, "Omg, my phone's date is wrong!" until 2 secs later it hits me that it IS 2010. gosh, too fast.

am in CSE class right now, slept at 6am last night to do com101 entry, so right now i'm super brain killed. :( either way, the whole class's on twitter, so i doubt anyone's really listening though the lecturer is really nice. i feel bad. =/ should attempt to listen now.

bye bye beautifuls! :)

; am i bright enough to shine in your spaces?

Saturday, January 30, 2010

|| let's paint a picture. ||

believe it or not, i switched on my laptop this afternoon at 2pm all ready and determined to make my saturday a productive day by completing all my dued work. i know, so weird right, only the first 2 weeks of school and i'm already needing to work hard on it. however, it's especially stressful when it hits me that everyone around me actually studies like 2 days in advance for a 10-questions-MCQ / 5 fill-in-the-blacks quiz, while i only grab my lecture notes last minute on the bus ride to campus. how come i didn't see this in a levels while at sr??

okay, beyond the point, back on topic... basically, it's now exactly 13 hours since i've came online and guess what? i've yet to even start on any of the planned work. RAHHS, i hate how work is done on the laptop, i can NEVER get on task with everything else distracting me, like msning, facebook etc, calling for me! :( i think i should find a way to disconnect my internet. =/

sorry, just needed to rant. and yes, blogging is also another distraction from the work i'm supposed to be ~~doing~~ DONE by now.

on a sidenote, despite the workload, i am enjoying school. the people make it awesome and i'm super happy to have friends like wenrong and nat for every module! :D then the every mon & wed regime of meeting up with edwin and yu ting for PSY101. and, girls like kailin and nat make CSE class super fun with all our talks! :D of course, not forgetting the super awesome COM101 group mates, am looking forward to our mall shopping time! :) along the way are many other random people, like how idk how it even started, but there's a gossip girl gang in my ESL class, lol! talk about 'Everyone Speaks Football', more like Everyone Speaks GG. ;) can't wait till The Lightning Thief comes out, then it's whole group outing! :D

oh, on the topic of the CSE111 girls' talk, (Edited out).
.
why am i even writing all of this here? i don't know, it's 4am and i'm not thinking right. it also helps that i'm assuming no one in the current school knows i even have a blog, hence see this, and neither does anyone from sr except my really goodfriends know of this supposed-to-be-kinda-private space. and, it's neither on facebook nor twitter. (yes, embarrassingly, i'm on twitter.
new friends' influence. :P )

okay, 4.02am, time to start my ESL essay.
bye bye beautifuls! :)

; they'll be the king of hearts,
& you're the queen of spades.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

|| 2010, twenty-ten. ||

for superman, it was kryptonite.
for samson, it was delilah.
for grace, it was... :)

the wait is over, i'm finally leaving you behind. when the clock strikes midnight; you're in my past now.
happy 2010, it's time for new beginnings. :)

ooh, and first post of the year, finally. :) am loving school atm. the people are so nice, and friends are easy to make at every class. and i'm so, so, so happy for one thing:
i'm in communications. :)

i'm glad i took my own stand in going to a course i've always dreamt of taking, rather than go into engineering/literature/arts courses that i have completely no interest in and would probably hate myself for taking up such a course while dying through 3 years of studying it without passion, just because my mum wants the "school rep". even if this means having to kill my savings and work my butt off in order to earn my own allowance for uni, adult bus fare, clothes etc, which means...
i'd better start finding a part-time job asap. :)

and on the topic of nice people and friends.......
hush now. :)

i can't believe we're living the dream.

; something about you blows me away,
like night over day.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

|| this christmas. ||

i wish for a kaleidoscope. :(

; i wish i may, i wish i might.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

|| november. ||

my favourite month. :)

; if i was crying, you would be lining
the cloud that would pull me through.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

|| able to love, let go. ||

the dawn is breaking,
a light shining through...
you're barely waking,
and i'm tangled up in you.

but i'm open, you're closed.
where i follow, you'll go.
i worry i won't see your face
light up again.

i'm quiet; you know...
you make a first impression.
i've found i'm scared to know
i'm always on your mind.

i have, nothing to say about the month of october. or more like, i do actually. but, it's not going to be printed in here, because some things are meant to be unwritten. or at least not for certain people's eyes.

on a random note...

Q: If you had a snail that could talk,
what would you name it?"

Mark: I would kill it, or sell it to the
nearest science centre -- get some money.

my brother has very amusing answers and opinions to many things, i sometimes have to admit that many a times he's a lot smarter than i am. that idiot STILL gets 92/100 for MATH even NOW that he's in secondary school, and, what's even more unbelievable for scoring that high is that he's already in the HIGHER math class in his level! :( i'm jealous. at secondary school, i started getting F9s 5 in a row, and he didn't get any lower than a C5 (CHINESE, LMAO. typical.) for any of his subjects in his end-year examinations. but, beyond all the fun poking i do at him, i'm proud of him. :)

oh, and this has been pretty outdated and i've been meaning to post it for quite sometime but it ran right off the top of my mental checklist. it's a really random msn convo with dom, which made us thinking about how our future would be when he's the godfather of my children and i'm the godmother of his children, LMAO.

one sided road says:
and next time if i had kids they would go like OMG AUNTY GRACE AND DADDY USED TO BE BOYFRIEND GIRLFRIEND

one sided road says:
then my wife will be all jealous and
i will be like shh-ing the kids

one sided road says:
and youll turn red and look to your husband while your husband gives an encouraging smile

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LMAO. i look forward to the future;
we could never be boring. :)

; even if the stars refuse to shine.

Friday, September 18, 2009

|| shark finning. ||

and you wonder why i hate shark fin soup?

i've mentioned it a lot of times before on how it's basically like cutting off your hands and legs and having your own family eat you alive while you suffocate and drown. then today i found this commercial that spoke my mind, except, it's rather more brutal than even i pictured it. so, if that touching video didn't get your attention... this should put things into perspective on how it's like for sharks themselves.

scary, right? i hate shark finning and the haze. :(

Monday, August 31, 2009

|| chocolate, chocolate. ||

for the sake of an august post (Blame OCAND - Obessive Complusive Archive Neatness Disorder), i'll just speed type whatever comes off the top of my head/heart/in-this-case-tummy. :)

recently, i went clarke quay with dom, and he always goes to the basement level for the specially imported gorceries stuff they have. while he was doing his usual spastic look-at-weird-looking(to me)-pasta-sauce-stuff, i went to my usual section to shop at any supermarkets... The Chocolate Alley. came across this Nestle bar called Yorkie that i've never seen in normal NTUC supermarkets (i have this thing for unseen/newly released chocolate bars) i wouldn't have bought it due to the lack of spendings that day, but the slogan was just seriously irritatingly tempting me. it's,

i was like, RAHHS! i don't care, i'm buying it AND eating it. after 2 minutes of implusively grabbing and paying for it, i realised that i think the slogan is a trap for retardedly sexist/stubborn girls. =/ dang marketing people! :( :( :(

BACK TO THE POINT, anyways, i just ate it today and OMG IT'S AWESOME! :D :D :D :)) (yes, that was the line that made me post this entry. that's how much i digress often. =/ ) not as good as my favoritee Milka bar standards, of course. but close!! :D especially with the fact that it doesn't melt easily, unlike Milka which melts very very instantly when you're just holding it. :( i'm so going there to get more stocks of it! :D :D :D :))

a little bit spas, but i was wondering if it does bad stuff to the body if it's not for girls, like, how mint and soyabean kills a guy's, you know. the idiot-marketing-people reasoning made more sense, so it won over anyways. :P BUT, because of that stupid thought, i went to google 'Nestle Yorkie Bar', like, you know, just in case. gah, i know, so singaporean, LMAO. and yayy, wikipedia has a page on it! See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yorkie_(chocolate_bar) ! :D (okay, so wikipedia may not be the most reliable site, as said by PW teachers 2 years back, but i honestly think it rocks in info.) i realised how slow i was cause it's been around states since effing 1976! slow much? =/ and, i also found this:

guess what?! it's actually in US's ARMY RATION PACK, with TWO of these awesome bars in each pack! like, OMG, i'm jealous!! :( :( :( it's such a giantic bar, plus the marketing people now personalised the ration pack ones for the army people by writing it as It's Not For Civvies, which means it's not for civillians -- who are basically not army men. i know, so random! makes me want to join the US army to see what else they have in their awesome ration packs! :D and...
i still want that big bar. =/

okay! gotta run! bye bye beautifuls! :D :D :D :)) love.

; you're barely waking,
and i'm tangled up in you.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

|| life, fastforward. ||

sunday morning,
rain is falling.
steal some covers,
share some skin.
fingers trace your every outline,
paint a picture with my hands.
back and forth we sway like branches in a storm;
change of weather,
still together when it ends.

my mum was talking to me last week about how she won't let me go overseas for further studies. but, i really really want to. i've been saying that i want an overseas education since sec 4, though i know it's impossible due to financial situations, so i was thinking of settling for a local one. but the more i research now, the more i really want to choose overseas over local gov/private. if only. i hate money issues. :( i wish i could study in the university of melbourne; their last batch of communications grads is in 2010, and i really want to be a part of it.

on a nicer topic, dinner with dom yday. :)
pictures, pictures...

awesome dinner. :D rahhs, i was talking to wilson on msn the other day. like, the day before i got the bank job, and he's going army soon! army is taking away all my big brothers. :(

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Wilson`TheRocker / says:
when are we going out!

Wilson`TheRocker / says:
haha

hey stranger. you are my signal fire. (: says:
hahas, when i find a job!

Wilson`TheRocker / says:
:(

Wilson`TheRocker / says:
how come?

hey stranger. you are my signal fire. (: says:
cause no job = no money = can't go out

Wilson`TheRocker / says:
u find job = long time = i enter army = botak

hey stranger. you are my signal fire. (: says:
good point.

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i'm glad that's settled. :)

ooh, on an uber happy high note,
i love the icecube maker. :)
this is sid, from ice age! :D

talking about ice, we just restocked
on our icecream freezer at home. :D

hahas, yes, ALL OF THAT. :D my family has my little brother and i -- junk food clearers. :D :D :D :))
that will be gone in 2 weeks tops. :)

i've got sunday morning all stuck up in my head. love the lyrics, and the mood that goes with it. bye bye beautifuls, love you. :)

; clouds are shrouding us in
moments unforgettable,
you twist to fit the mold that i am in.

Thursday, July 09, 2009

|| big whoop. ||

i've changed my layout design... well, kinda. is it noticeable? LOL! other than the fact that it's bolded and in caps and practically screams out at the page. :P

basically, couldn't bare/am-not-free-enough to change the design+layout+template the way finding a whole new blogskin works. after all, this is still my favorite blog design... even after using it ever since secondary 2. though i do have a private blog to curb my change-the-old-skin urges, not that it's skin had been changed anytime previously. cause it's pretty! :D see:

obviously, printscreen-ed. but also obviously cut, cause it makes no sense for it to be a private blog if the address is known. not that it matters since it's password-locked to self anyways. plus, i've like uber protected it such that even if someone does manage to get into it, no one would be able to read the entries since all the click-on links are hiddened in the layout. :P anyways, i loveeeee the colours! changed it once to this and never changed it ever again. i should stop sticking to favorites, like, start being more adventurous and wannebe-exciting by changing the skin every 3 days or something... or NOT.

it's 2.30am now, ought to go sleep already. bye bye beautifuls! and, nighty nights world! sweetest dreams. :)

; we'll buy a ticket to the end of a rainbow.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

|| breathe, baby, breathe. ||

do you believe in karma?

what goes around, comes around.

i've been thinking about a few things recently and i realise that i do believe in it. as much as most people think it's stupid because bad guys do usually win in the real world, i don't think karma actually is all about good-guys-bad-guys. it's more like life? things happen in a circular motion, you would always go back to round one, base point. like, growing up. at birth, you start off in a diaper. at old age, you STILL end up in a diaper, even though you had grew out of it when you were 5. it's like a clock, no matter how fast or slow it ticks, it still goes back to 12am at the end of the day.

of course, telling that to j, he was like "OF COURSE! KARMA IS SO TRUE! My life is filled with it!" i was just confused so he explained his 'karma-filled life', "You see, I believe in karma so much that when I love shopping. Everytime I have to pay the cashier, I think to myself, 'What goes around comes around!', so I'm sure the money will come back! No worries! Next month's pay! :D" at this points he happily smiles to himself like Einstein finding the Theory of Relativity or something... while i wonder to myself how on earth did we even become good friends. like omg! :)

OKAY. anyways, about the karma topic. i know, NO LINK. idk how i end up typing about that when i was just thinking of what lyrics to put as the title. LOL. oh, and that i'm blogging to write about how much i really appreciate the friendship of our RDBs (rubber duckie babies! :D basically, my happy-high primary school clique.). OOH. okaye, i'm awesome,
i just though of a link!! :DDD

see? like karma, it's like we started off as a clique, in primary school... the place where people usually have friends but lose contact with them after sec school onwards / at the maximum, facebook-friend them or something. however, it's amazing how we did lose contact, in the way after primary school, we only met up like once in sec 1? after that the rest of the meetings where either 2 people or 3 people, not as a whole, you know. (except that once with youying's eugene. at j8. sec 2! :P) this happened for 4 years? to me, at least, since i think i was really out of the meetings in sec school. the closest was sarah since we were in the same CCA. kinda funny in the way life worked since jean & youying were my closest in primary school, while i don't talk a lot to jiaying, sarah and jolie. shy la huh! :P but well, basically, i think sec school was still good cause it made the few of us who rarely talk to know each other more; i remember hanging out with jiaying and jolie and going to the hereen to take neoprints during sec 2. hahas. :)

so well, to think about it, even when we all did go our seperate ways in mostly upper sec, everything does go back to base. the most ironic thing in the way life works is that it happens in the oddest time, like one would except everyone to come back when it's like at least sec school when we're going through the same thing, however, it's when we're the MOST different in everything (like for example, our passions/ccas. jean dances, sarah designs, youying sings, jiaying leads, i play touch rugby... it's all so different.) that when we come back together as a clique and started really meeting up frequently. when we basically don't do small talk anymore and more on random things and actual-slash-physical life? LOL. :P

to sum it up: i love them truckloads + lorries + transformer-styled airplane loads! :D ♥
thanks for the awesome friday night loves! :)

since the entry's already on a very not-so-earthly ground, might as well just add in this horoscope life reading i found. i think it's really accurate, to the point of life, self, type of partner, marriage, way of thinking and speaking, image portrayed, people's perpectives, and hopefully, the parenting part would be true too, cause that's exactly how i really want to be with my kids. the kind of parent that my dad is to me. :) here's the extract...

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A Sagittarius woman lacks tact and her flat, on-the-face statements may make you feeling like running away from her. Then, suddenly, she will say something so charming that you will feel as if you are on the seventh heaven. There, you go again; you will be trapped in her charm once more. Once you have been enamored by a Sagittarius girl, you will be staying with her for a long time. She is pleasant, friendly, outspoken and very talkative. Her forthrightness comes form the fact that she has no illusions about the world.

She sees it exactly as it is and says what she sees. At times, you may wish that she were not so honest. But then, she would be like any other girl -- In all probability, you will not like it. A Sagittarian female is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude to her or offend her, she may become a fire-spitting dragon.

Sagittarius women are quite independent and love their freedom. They are attached to their family, but not too much to anyone else. If you want to get something done from a Sagittarian female, just ask her; don't order. She will never ever do it. She is your better half and don't you dare forget that. On the other hand, she doesn't want a sissy for a husband or boyfriend. He has to be a real man, who has his ego and won't stand for nonsense. So, you will be expected to balance politeness with firmness.

I know it's difficult - but then, since when was winning someone easy. With a Sagittarius girl, you will never have to guess. She says what she thinks and how she acts shows what she feels. This bluntness may cost her heavily at times, even to the point of ending the relationship. Still, she would act as if she's not hurt at all and it is just one of the many harmless flirtations she's had. People will even believe all this, while inside she will be weeping and nursing her wounds. All this time, she will be analyzing what went wrong and when.

The word 'marriage' makes a Sagittarian female a little nervous and you will need to tempt her in order to make her settle down. She is a little hard to catch and tends to be one of the boys all the time. That doesn't mean she looks or acts like a man! In fact, she is as female as any other girl is. The society and its norms do not matter to her. She can never be the hypocrite that some people are and tend to wiggle a few tongues. Her honesty and brusqueness further add to the negative opinions some people have.

Don't be fooled by them. Look deep inside a Sagittarius female and you will find a woman who is so enthusiastic about life and who trusts easily. In fact, this extreme belief makes her heart vulnerable and defenseless. It gets broken too often, but then, she knows how to move on with life. You will be tempted to care for her. It's natural. There are hardly any people who can resist the bright and charming disposition of a Sagittarius girl. She will not be too good with money and will most probably be on the extravagant side.

She is very sentimental and emotional, though it seems otherwise from the outside. It just that, where her innermost feelings are concerned, she would never dare to show to others. After marriage, your house will always remain sparkling clean, even if you don't have a maid to do that. She cannot stand sloppiness, it doesn't appeal to her sensibilities. She may not be too good at cooking, but she will also not burn your egg every day. A Sagittarian girl may pass the most sarcastic comments when she is angry, but she will forget the resentment soon enough. Then, she won't understand why are you so upset.

As a mother, she will be very friendly with the kids. In fact, she will be more of a chum, than a mom. Only, you will have to teach them to take her bluntness with a pinch of salt. Apart from that, she will be wonderful and make them as independent as she is. She will be a lovely hostess to guests and make them feel at home. Just let her be what she is. Don't try to change her and don't curb her individuality. She will brighten your life with her optimism, boost you with loyalty, trust you blindly and shower her affection on you. She will encourage you to see dreams and help you in making them come true.

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hahas, dom would totally agree to the part about the sarcastic and mean comments from straightforwardness and being so fustrating that he would feel like killing me. he just told me recently that if i could be reborn all the time, he would have killed me so many times before, cause i can be so fustrating that he feels like strangling me on the spot. like, i'm completely clueless when i actually piss someone off by speaking what i really think, or if i'm being mean by saying the truth, and when the person gets pissed i'm seriously really confused over why. but my friends understand that i honestly really don't mean to be mean and that i really don't know it was too blunt, so yayy, love my friends! :D for being so understanding. :) and my bestie! for not killing me during all those 895219752048289074y62 times! :D :D :D :))

oh a sidenote, i've got a job at a corporate bank. me. the girl who hates business. i can't believe i even got the job in the first place; i sucked at the interview. major. =/ as updated, i would be doing finance trading. wish me luck! i'll need it for those credit banking for import and export stuff. =/

gotta run now! bye bye beautifuls! :D :D :D :))

; bounce bounce, baby, bounce back to me
-- you don't need him.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

|| thinking of you. ||

he kissed my lips,
i taste your mouth.

cause when i'm with him,
i am thinking of you.

quite a huge load of stuff going on with life recently. just, really confused? =/ and i'm also wondering, when will all these fights/bitching/arguements between friends to friends stop? i thought it would the moment school ended, when we're all done with the a's and moved on with real life. seems like it doesn't end so easily, and i really don't want to get pulled back in again. oh, random people,
don't take it to heart; this is more than just 2 or 3 issues
strung together, not at all specific.
i am an oddly confusing person.

should i go overseas for a uni degree? i really want to study communications, but singapore's only school that is good in it is NTU, but you need AAB with gp at least a B to even apply for it. my grades sucked; i had BCC. really shouldn't have played jc life away as just "another o levels", but i have no regrets somehow. idk why either. UK seems inviting, but crazy expensive. australia is the cheapest; but i can bare leaving my brother and sister for 3 years? i don't think so.

everyone's recommending courses like business and law if going overseas or private unis... 2 words, NO WAY. asking me to take law/business is like asking me to take engineering, i would hate it. i have zero interest in such courses, i see nothing to be proud of in them.
i wish i could do a uk degree in communications;
now that is something to be proud of.

back to point one, money matters. overseas are very hefty choices. maybe i should stay in singapore and do arts, which i don't even like. =/

on a more less-serious topic,
i ♥ the pasar malam at the interchange! :D :D :D :))
seriously, happiness fills my heart! :D

oh yeah! recently caught Ghost of Girlfriends Past.
i liked the movie; really uber touching. :) :) :)
one line really got to me:

"The power of a relationship
lies with whoever cares less."

i think it's true, in it's way. but the next line coming up, "And he's right. But power isn't happiness." is also just as true. from the 1st line, i think it hurts the most. it's precisely this fear of being hurt that makes me unable to give my everything in a relationship. from hearing bad things from good friends who know the person better than you do, all the way to fearing how you may just be a stepping stone along the way -- not a destination at the end. i wish happy endings existed too.

okay, enough deep talk, i tend to sidetrack a lot! =/ just one last extra point, i really really like the actress playing the bride-to-be! i feel that she's a real sweetheart! :D i hope she'll get more movies! :) :) :) transformers with my brother soon! can't wait for that! :D :D :D :)) why? 2 words: megan fox. :D

one combine shot to cover last week! :D

awesome sleepover! the place was so much more like a hotel overseas than singapore itself. but where ever the place is, i feel the best part was the company. :) love you girls truckloads! :D ♥

kays, gotta run now! it's like 10pm and i've yet to have dinner! :( :( :( hungry girl. :( bye bye beautifuls! :D

; you are my kind of beautiful.